Wednesday, June 27, 2012

The Beginning

I have recently decided, after reaching my highest weight ever, that I needed to seriously work on losing weight. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I hate it!! All I want to do is be able to fit in my clothes without my fat hanging out all over the place!!

I have a bad habit of eating my emotions. If I'm stressed, I eat. If I am bored, I eat. If I am depressed, I eat. When these situations arise I find it ridiculously hard to control myself. If I try to deprive myself, it makes me want it more. Then, because I am weak, I give in. I am still looking for ways to reign myself in. The most successful method I have found so far is to keep myself SUPER DUPER busy!

I lost 50lbs after I graduated high school, and I looked and felt awesome! It took me 9 years to gain my weight back, but I have gained it all back, plus a few extra pounds. My lowest weight I remember being, as an adult, was 144lbs. I looked sexy, if I do say so myself! I miss it sooo much!

If I was to wear this jacket today, I would be super-snuggin in it
Another one...

One of my personal favorites. I like actually having one chin.
I am currently at 197lbs. Gross, I know. My goal weight is 135. I will be happy in the 140s, but 135 is my ultimate.

My plan so far is to use MyFitnessPal as a tool. I have a membership at a really good gym that I am also going to take advantage of. My favorite cardio exercise, so far, has been on an elliptical because I don't feel like I am dying while doing it... aka. it doesn't affect my asthma. I also enjoy weight training.. with machines... not free weights. I'm clumsy.

Just for the record and a comparasion I am going to post a current "before" picture. Sorry if it grosses you out; it does me too.


3 comments:

  1. I'm dripping with empathy. I snack too. Constantly. Right now I'm trying to replace my oreo snacking fetish with healthier snacks because deprevity just isn't my thing. :/ I completely admire your honesty.

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  2. Yea!!! You can do it girl. Love you. :)

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  3. Get it girl! Watermelon is my friend. It satiates my sweet tooth but is only 46 calories per cup. I need to cut up another one because yesterday oreos were my friend though my waist disagrees. I'd be up for doing a workout video in the mornings.

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