Couch to 5K

I'm on my 2nd day of the 2nd week of C25K. It has been easier than I thought it was... meaning I haven't died yet. I can now run 2 minutes without stopping.That's a feat for me! WOOHOO!!

New Year... no resolution for me

Ok, so I still suck. No weight dropped, but at least I’ve maintained and not gained. The holidays were great! I made and ate TONS of food, but seriously, I have GOT to get back on the bandwagon.

In a few days I will be starting back at school. It will be my first semester of Nurse Practitioner school and I’m way excited and super nervous. I know I’ll be extra super duper busy, but BRING IT ON!!

I have learned, by my boyfriend calling me out about so-called “temper tantrums,” that I really release my feelings, aggressions, and frustration out through vigorous physical activity. For instance, like my last tantrum consisted of me knocking over the wood rack in my back yard and then proceeding to throw the rack over the fence, followed by all of the wood. I really was intending on moving the wood at some point, but just not in a fit of rage.
 
Today I started my first day of Couch to 5K. I died a little. My dog (a great dane)didn’t help either… she decided that she was gonna run full speed while I wanted to go slow cause I’m fat and out if shape. I eventually wanna be able to run a race of some sort and not be dead last… right now I definitely would be. My friend, Lauren, has been bugging me to do this for a while. We’ll see what goes down.

 

Suckage

Ok, ok, so I have been sucking at this weight loss thing for some months now. Between being unemployed, drepressed, and stressed the eff out, I have been doing awful! I haven't lost squat! Counting calories suck balls and its annoying. I guess my new strategy will be to eat small amounts and only when I am hungry. This is my biggest challenge, since I'm typically a grazer and a picker. Since I recently got a new job, some motivation is sneaking back. Partially because I'm not as depressed, and majorly because I can't fit into my "fat" jeans and its not going to be capris weather pertty soon AND my "fat" scrubs are getting too tight. Sad day! On the flip side, I am looking forward to fall and being able to wear hoodies and stuff. Winter, not so much, but fall, yes.

I actually went to the gym today... first time in months! It felt pretty good. I only did 30 min on the elliptical, but its better than no minutes AND I burned like 427 calories (according to the machine) in that 30 min. Pretty impressive if I do say so myself :) I was tearing it up! I've been thinking about taking up running, if my asthma would allow it. Runner's World has a program that looks pretty good. Would probably help me lose weight fast too... that would be SOOOOOO nice!! We'll see. Hopefully, I can do better so I won't be so embarrassed to post stuff on here and make myself look like the complete slacker that I am. ;)

Possessed Mirror

I know this sounds really weird, but that's ok. I think that the mirror at the gym is possessed. When I am at home I look in the mirror and I don't look THAT bad... I'm fat, but not FAT!! Unfortunately, when I look in the mirror at the gym I look like a beached whale. Its almost like the mirror belongs in a funhouse or something. I seriously think that mirrors should be like the one from Harry Potter where it shows you what you wanna see rather than the reality... Wouldn't that be nice?? I think so...

Update: I suck at cutting calories. The end.

Its finally going away!

I weight myself this morning and I was at 193.5! YAY!! So glad to see some fat disappear! :D

I am still struggling, just about everyday, with my food but I'm getting there. I'm actually rotating between the gym and doing Rockin' Body. For those that are unfamiliar with Rockin' Body, its kind of like dance aerobics. Shaun T., the same guy that does Insanity, is the instructor in this DVD set. I think its really fun and after about a week you can start to see sutble differences in your body because it builds muscle while burning calories. If you're interested then click here for more information about the set.

No pics, because I'm lazy. Plus pics make me look fat. ;)

Literally 2-3 Months Ago...

I have to gripe really quick... ok, here goes... Ahem, literally 2 or 3 months ago I could do the ab machine at the gym at 80lbs resistance and I had no problem going all the way down with the machine, but today I tried it and I failed! My FAT kept me from being able to bend over enough. Soooo frustrating! AND I'm still having trouble with the calories... mostly thanks to my parents for inviting me to go out to eat with them and my weakness. Ugh, MUST KEEP PUSHING!!

So Hard!

Have I ever said how hard it was to count calories?? Oh my gosh, it's freakin hard! I want food!! I don't mind the exercising as much as I do watching what I eat. Most of my favorite meals are like my whole day worth of calories. In my ideal world the stuff that tastes good like hot wings and ice cream would be healthy, but alas, no such luck.

I have discovered that I can actually tolerate some food that, in the past, I have turned my nose up at. For instance, brussel sprouts, I used to refuse to touch them. They smelled like farts and I wasn't into eating farts. My friend made them for dinner the other night and I decided to grow a pair and try them. To my surprise they weren't bad! I had to douse them in salt and pepper, but they were kinds reminiscent  of brocolli (which I like). I guess on my next venture to the grocery store I will buy some.

Another hard thing: cooking for one... I have a ton of healthy recipes from the Cooking Light website that I would love to try, but I don't try them often for the pure fact that I don't want to eat the same thing for like 5 days straight. So looks like a Smart Ones most of the time for me.... and LOTS of fruit!